Vonda's Story

Well I have been sitting here surfing through different stories and some of them make me angry, but then again I have no place to talk. But I found out I was pregnant Jan 27th 2001 and I couldn't believe it at first because my ex boyfriend was always so careful but I should have know that the pull out quick method doesn't always work. we were together for a year. I called him when I got home from work and told him that I went to the doctor and she told me i was pregnant. he didn't say anything at first then he was like he would call me back to talk about it so i let him go. About 10 minutes later he called back and he was like, look I can't have this shit right now i already have the twins and they r just coming out of pampers and plus u got your two. he went on and on about how he had goals, places he wanted to go, etc. I felt that was real selfish.

For weeks I was trying to figure out what to do. I didn't tell my mom and to this day she still doesn't know, although back then she kept asking me was i pregnant cause she had a dream of fishes (she is old fashion like that) I kept denying it. He and I was always in heated arguments over it so I just got fed up one day and told him fine, let's go ahead and do this. he stayed out of town so he drove down one night to pick me up and my cousin came over to watch the my two kids and the next morning we left. It was two hours away from where i lived. when we got there it was packed. I could not believe it i was there for awhile and throughout my time there he was not supportive at all. he was sleep i was scared and he did not comfort me at all he only woke up to see had they called me yet. I remember sitting in the pre-op room with other girls and the way they were talking was ridiculous most just didn't wanna be pregnant for the summer time. Anyway after it was over, i remember waking up in recovery asking where my baby was I don't remember the actual thing at all. I was crying the whole way home yes home I thought we were gonna get a room and stay so i could get some rest but he drove me all the way back home drop me off didn't stay with me i don't even wanna talk about it no more.

All I have to say is now I have found someone very special and he wants a child, but now I don't know if I can give him what we both want because of what I did to please my ex. Just think long and hard, because u never know the outcome. everyone's body isn't the same. Stay strong no matter what u decided, but make sure its for u and no one else cause I am definitely suffering and it has almost been a year.

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