Sometimes I wish I had no choice to
I need to talk to my husband, share the decision with him, but I am
afraid he will disagree with me.
That would mean trouble.
And he is
a good husband.
I don't want to lose him.
We had this decision to
and we, I half-heartedly decided to go through with the pregnancy.
Now I have a son that I love, but I still want more than babies
And at this
rate, a mother is all I will ever be.
I have no self respect.
did not choose my pregnancies
And I was not stupid enough to go without birth
control, but it appears that the pill
just doesn't work for me.
I took it religiously.
I need some self respect.
I need a career, a purpose
a way to earn a living for myself.
when I have achieved something,
(I hear people say that children are their
greatest achievement, and I think, why?, just about everyone can have them)
I will be able to be a better, happier, more fullfilled mother.
And a better
happier more fulfilled woman for my future daughters.
2 Dec 2002
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