I had an abortion over a year ago.
I had been dating a man for 3 months when it happened. The night it happened I
just knew I was pregnant. I was five weeks when I had the abortion, the week before
I could barely walk. I threw up everything I ate, I couldn't drink anything and
was losing weight and dehydrated. He was there for me the whole way but we both
decided that an abortion was what we should do.
I feel that everything happens
for a reason, not always for the happiest reasons, but everything in this world
happens for a reason. It was not the right time for us, and it was so hard to
go through with it. Every single day I think about it and feel a sadness in my
heart. When I look at children I imagine what my own would have looked like. I'm
sad that I did it, but I would not have changed a thing.
The father of that
child is now my fiance. We want to have children one day, when the time is right.
If I were to get pregnant again, I would have the child.
It's hard for me
to think about it, but I feel like I need to talk to other women to start the
healing process. It's been an open wound for almost a year and now I want to help
to heal it. Websites like this are so great for my soul. Knowing that other women
have gone through what I have. I cherish the gift of choice and thank the lord
that the freedom of choice is ours.Sarah
17 October 2001
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