In the middle of my junior year I found
out I was pregnant. My boyfriend and I wanted to keep it but I was so scared to
tell my parents. I was scared about what everyone was going to say and think.
That's why I decided to get an abortion (I was 11 weeks pregnant). That abortion
was the worse thing I've ever done. It tore me apart in so many different ways.
I went through this bad depression and things fell apart with my boyfriend. I
just prayed and prayed so God could forgive me. Little by little I recovered and
I've been doing a lot better.
Its been a whole year now and just 3 weeks
ago I found out I'm pregnant again (with the same guy). I was happy and scared.
I saw it as God gave me an opportunity again to be a mom. God gave me a second
chance and I'm so happy. Now I'm 18 years old and I'm graduating from highschool.
I told my parents and they have been very supportive. I'm not with the guy because
he needs to grow up.... but who knows what the future holds for me. All I know
is that I have a new reason to live for and I can't wait to meet the baby that
grows in me.Paulina
9 May 2003
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i was burnin up
& endlessly weavin garments for
wit my tears
i found god in myself
& i loved her
i loved her fiercely.
- Ntozake Shange