I am 27 now and had an abortion when
I was 15 years old. I had been in a relationship with my high-school sweetheart
for a year then. I remember going to the clinic and finding out I was pregnant
it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was crying for about two hours it was like someone
just had turned the tears on. I felt so helpless, I didn't know what I wanted.
I knew I was too young to have a child.
I told my boyfriend and he told
me he wanted for me to get an abortion. I checked out a book on pregnancy and
started thinking about having the baby. My boyfriend told me to stop looking at
books like that. Somehow my mom and his dad found out and had an intervention
with me. They told me how I would ruin my life if I where to have the baby. Then
my mom told me if I had it I would have to get out her house. His older sister
also told me how easy it is to have an abortion.
The dreaded day finally
came and I was 12 weeks by then. I remember laying on the table and seeing my
baby on the ultrasound. Then the procedure started all the way from the beginning
to the very end of it I cried, I cried for what I was doing making the choice
to take my own innocent child's life. A life that never got a chance to be asked
whether or not he/she wanted to live.
Today I still ache in my heart and
cry over this decision I made so long ago. And wish I could take it all back and
have that child. I made a very selfish decision. There are a lot more worse things
that could of happened to me that would of changed my life other than a blessing
like child. At the clinic I could of been told I had cancer.Thanks for reading my story,
22 August 1999
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