My fourth - I can't even utter the words
Thank you for this forum. I really need to write
about this, as I am unable to speak--force myself to hear- that once again I am
I am not a teenager. I am a moderately well-educated woman
of 33. I have suffered from severe clinical depression over the past few years
and have just gotten on medication that seems to work. I have already had two
abortions this year and will now have to have a third.
with the father is extremely rocky and volatile. He wants the baby and I feel
so guilty and selfish for not wanting to bring a child into the world--most particularly
involving another human being in our already-bad situation. I have just gotten
my professional life going again-- after a long period of abandoning it.
I know I could love a child, but I just don't believe that love is enough.
I have no health insurance and cannot afford pre-natal care. I am not stable mentally.
I have stopped taking my medication for two weeks and already the depression is
returning. It's probably situational at this point, but I cannot focus on anything
and feel lost and alone. I am so torn about this. I am so ashamed. I cannot take
another loss. I lose no matter what choice I make.
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the average women having only two children, having early menarche (first menstrual
period) and late menopause, most women will need contraception for 40 years.