Today i found out i am 5 and 1/2 weeks
pregnant. I have an appointment on Monday to get my abortion. Im nervous and i
need some one to talk to it about. My story is a messed up one. Its hard.
was with a man older then myself. He is thirty-eight and i am eighteen. It seemed
like a great relationship. Wow, an older man. This is great. He's so mature. Right?
Wrong. One night after we had sex, he rolled over and said " I have to tell
you something, I'm married and I have two children."
I was in disbelief.
He said he loved me. I was so stupid. I'm usually not this stupid. I told him
I had to stop seeing him. He said he understood. Now, its a little after christmas
and I get a cold. Thats understandable, except i've had it for almost 4 weeks.
Ummm , there is something strange here. Im nausiated in the morning, dizzy, Ive
been gaining and loosing weight. My friend talks me into taking a pregnancy test.
Suddenly my entire world changes and comes to a halt. Am
I ready for such a responsibility? Monitarily? Emotionally? I asked myself many
questions. They all seemed to say no. So I ran to my closet ( where i keep my
books) and I find my DEAL WITH IT ! book. It's a book put out by Gurl.com.
It gives me some information on Abortions. Abortions, wow. My grandfather is a
priest. Will I go to Hell? Putting the religious convictions I decide I have to
call the father. He says Abortion. Ive read every story in this gallery, read
numerous sites. So Monday January 20th ,I will have had my first abortion at 1:00
pm. I've made the appointment.
Now all I've got left is to hope, wonder
and to wait. Waiting is the hardest thing. But, I know this is right.Lauren - 18- California
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