I became pregnant at the age of 18.
I was a senior in High School and a month from graduating. I had no idea that
i was pregnant. I graduated high school thinking everything was great, but it
was not. A month had passed and I still did not receive my period. But I did not
sweat it. I usually would skip a month and it would come on the first day of the
next month. July came, and still no period.
So me and one of my best friends
went out one Saturday night. She kind of suspected that she was pregnant also.
So we went and bought a test. We took the test at a local movie theater. Her test
was negative, but mine was positive. I was so shocked. I had no idea. And what's
worse, my current boyfriend was not the father, it was my ex. I left the bathroom
and lied to my friend.
To this day, no one knows except for my mother.
My mom kind of suspected that I was pregnant so she made an appointment for me
at the women's clinic. They made me take a test as soon as they found out how
late I was. Of course it was still positive. My mom was so hurt. But she did not
get angry. I had an ultrasound done that day and found out that I was twelve weeks
pregnant with a baby girl. I knew right from the start that I did not want to
have a baby. My mom asked me what did I want to do and I told her.She was not
upset. So we went home and made the appointment.
The next week at thirteen
weeks, I had it done. I was so scared, but the nurse and doctor made me feel better.
I had alot of cramping during the procedure. It felt like my insides were being
sucked out. It lasted about five minutes. After it was all over I cried. I could
not believe what I had done. As the days went on, I had tremendous bleeding and
so much pain. But nothing compared to the depression I experienced. I found myself
crying and holding my stomach all of the time wishing that I would feel kicking
or some sort of movement. That went on for about a month. I had it done August
28, 2002. I knew that I had did the right thing.
Today I am a full time
college student with a job. If I would of had my baby, she would of been born
this month. I will always remember her and love her. I am nineteen and happy.
I finally have my life back on track. But it is nice to know that I was not the
only one that had to make this decision.Jade
February 20, 2003
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is not immediately clear to the powerless, who feel they need alliance with the
powerful to survive."
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