I had an abortion three weeks ago. Jackie
When I found
out I was pregnant I was 15 and attending grade 10 at high school. I was two weeks
late for my period, I never thought I could be pregnant. But another week passed
and my boyfriend and I really started to worry, I mean we had our whole lives
ahead of us.
So I went to the doctors, only to receive a call the next
day saying I was definitely pregnant. I remember hanging the phone up crying.
That day I never left my room until my boyfriend showed up, he tried to comfort
me and said "our only choice is to terminate this pregnancy." I was against abortions
at the time, I thought it was murder. So of course I got very angry with him.
I couldn't tell my family and I couldn't tell my friends, I had only the health
unit to depend on. My family was against abortions, and my older sister couldn't
have children, so this was a very tough thing for me to have to do.
I was 12 weeks pregnant and getting sick every day, when finally I decided an
abortion is what I would do. We made an appointment and when I was 16 weeks pregnant
we headed to the hospital. I cried the whole way there and back. I was very emotional
with the whole thing and still am. I found the abortion uncomfortable, but the
nurses and counselors helped me a lot and where very supportive. I was scared
but my boyfriend was with me through out the whole thing.
To think back
makes me cry, but to think ahead makes me feel that I made the right choice. Now
I'm all for abortions, and I want every other young women out there to know
that we do have choices. If a pregnancy is unwanted, abortions are ok. Even
though it may feel wrong going through the termination, at the end you'll realize
you made the right choice. I know I did.
21 August 1999
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