I guess I have asked myself
that a million times over and over, why me, why was I put in that situation? I
was 17 dating a guy who turned out to be the world's biggest jerk, I was IN LOVE
though, I was blinded by his promises, his lies, his pleas...
I found out
I was pregnant, and called him RIGHT AWAY. He was shaking when I told him, we
met at college, were instantly attracted to each other, and NEVER thought we would
be dealing with this...
I told my mom, she was so ANGRY and HURT, and she
told me my only CHOICE was abortion, and my boyfriend said the SAME thing... I
My boyfriend made promises of marriage in the future,
and all sorts of things that I wanted to hear, he told me how he couldn't tell
his family... they would disown him... well TOUGH... I had to tell my mom and
my family... but blindly I said "Oh don't tell them then," what a MISTAKE
We made the appointment, it seemed like a dream when we were
there, there were people protesting outside, they tried to grab me, they were
throwing plastic fetuses at me... I was scared... I went in, it was a nightmare,
my mom had to go with me because I was under age... we brought the wrong forms...
ugh... she left and said she would fax them... they said fine, so I talked to
a counselor who asked if someone was making me do this... I wanted to SCREAM YES!!!
I told her what she wanted to hear...
Next they did a ultrasound, and couldn't
find a baby... so they sent me home...and we rescheduled for a week later... I
couldn't believe this, I would have to go all over again... why me, I asked myself?
go back, this time I am NUMB, I am just pushing it all out of my mind, they do
the ultrasound, they see a baby, I am 6 weeks, they do the procedure, I have two
wonderful nurses in there, who talk to me and make me feel so comfortable at this
terrible time! I go to recovery, where women are crying and some are sick, some
are just laying so still...
I get to go home, my boyfriend goes home with
me, stays for about a half hour, makes a phone call and says he needs to go...
I have never to this day heard from him ever again... all his promises... GONE...
all his LIES, that made me feel so horrible... I couldn't imagine this... again
I ask myself...WHY ME???
I feel good about my decision to have a abortion,
because 5 months after that procedure, I met the man of my dreams, the man I married...
but I wish I would have made the decision for the abortion MYSELF, I had it made
for me... and it took a long time for me to come to term with the decision that
was made for me, I now have 2 beautiful children and I am pregnant with my third...
my life is wonderful, I am still missing that little piece of my heart, but I
know that I made the right decision!Ginger
17 March 1999
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know that every time I do an abortion for a woman who chooses it, I am saving
her life literally, and figuratively."
- Maureen Paul, MD, Boston