Enid's Story

Hi my name is Enid. I had an abortion 2 years ago this March. I am looking for someone who wants to talk about the tough time they are going through after their abortion. I am basically looking for a "support group".

I had an easy time getting the abortion (at 20 weeks), but now the feelings seem stronger than ever. I doubt my rightfulness of making that decision. Everyday I ask myself, where would I be if I would have had that kid? would I be worse of as I thought I would have? would I be on welfare (probably not, my fiancé has "enough" money)?

In reality, was I better off without my wonderful unborn child?? I think NOT!! I loved that baby indescribably! I could feel its love and need for me like nothing I have ever felt!

I still pray for that child in heaven, and cant wait to see him/her!!!! God, did I do the wrong thing!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!???? I would like to help other women trying to make the decision. Let me tell you one thing. I cry every day. EVERY DAY!!!! thinking about that baby.

I'm sure it's tough having and raising a kid, but I see how much LOVE and happiness a child brings to its parents/parent and I want to kill myself for ever giving THAT up!!!!

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