"Two children are enough...I think"
After reading Theresa's
story, I felt compelled to write mine, as well. I am pregnant. Five weeks
as far as I can tell. After our second child (and one miscarriage), we were certain
we did not want any more children. My husband was going to get a vasectomy
next month so that we could enjoy each other worry free! Now, suddenly, we have
more worries. I have had relatively easy pregnancies and births, but horrible
infancies. Infancies filled with colicy screaming- day and night - small babies
that NEVER sleep through the night, and clingy, needy babies that must be held
constantly. With each child came a year of total exhaustion. My youngest is 13
months old and here I am. Pregnant again.
I love my children more than
anyone could imagine. I would lay down my life for them. But I don't want any
I have always been Pro-Choice, and I still am. But now that
the choice is in front of me, I'm not sure I can make it. Right now, I feel it
is my only option. For my family and for my sanity.
And sadly, I
live in a society in which there is NO ONE (other than my husband and my mother)
that I can discuss this with. I have not been raped. I am not a single woman.
I am not a teenager. There is no fetal distress nor are there any abnormalities.
My decision - on the surface - appears shallow and selfish. If it were, it would
be much easier to make. This is by far the most important decision of my life.
As all of you know. Please keep me (and Theresa) in your prayers while I am in
this temporary state of limbo. And know that whatever CHOICES WE make, they are
the right ones because they are made after many tears and much soul searching.deedee
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the beginning of time nothing was accomplished without women - and nothing has
been ignored more than their accomplishments." (Women's accomplishments are
featured on: http://www.undelete.org)