I have just had my fourth abortion.
I was pregnant by my "best friend" with this one. I already have two
children and am already struggling with bills and supporting us on basically nothing.
I am separated from their father- he doesn't pay any child support because
he's a # @ ! # . During this last abortion, my "best friend" wouldn't
go with me because he was embarrassed- he thought people would stare at him and
think bad thoughts of him. He promised to always be there for me and my two kids.
Where is he right now?? I do not know- work or out with another woman. He has
not called me since I told him that I would have the abortion (which was yesterday).
Some "best friend"- he did not even call to see if I made it out OK-
if I need anything- or if I needed to talk. He's waiting for me to call him- I
don't think so!!!
If there is anyone out there that is thinking that abortion
is there only choice, you are more than likely right. I have felt from the beginning
of this pregnancy that it was my only choice. I knew then and I know now that
it was the right choice, the only choice. I am glad I made this choice to abort.
I could not bring another life into my situation, it's hard raising two kids on
my own. But thank God, my family and friends help me so much. How could I bring
another child into a world filled with war and drugs, crime, murder. I pray for
my children everyday that their future is not filled with worries of war and hate.
I'll be getting my tubes tied
soon- as soon as the doctor has his first opening at the hospital. I won't go
through this abortion stuff again. My abortions were stress free (I knew it was
my only choice), I knew I was making the right choice, I did not experience many
side effects, hardly any bleeding, no infections. But who wants to keep going
through this over and over again.
I guess I am very fertile,
because every time I've become pregnant and had an abortion, there was definite
birth control involved- and one month
later I was pregnant. I tried to be safe and I ended up pregnant over and over,
so now my only choice is to get my tubes tied. For me, that little "inner
voice" helps to guide me- so many times that little voice has been right
and I am so glad I followed it with every single one of these abortions.
am glad that I have my two children and am very proud that I am raising them on
my own, because I get the credit for raising two beautiful people who someday
might just change the world, they have taught me so much in there short lives.
I hope that my story helps someone come to the right decision for themselves.
Don't let anyone- not even your best friend- talk you into anything that you feel
is not in your best interest.
12 March 2003
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