April's Story

My name is April. I was 20 years old when I had my abortion. I am 23 now and still with the man who fathered the aborted child. I do not regret what I did even though it was not entirely up to me. My fiancé and his parents pressured me into making a choice that normally I would not have made.

I was 15 weeks along and I had finally gotten used to the idea of being pregnant when his parents started harassing me. Well about four days after they found out his mother picked me up at my house and drove my fiancé and me to the clinic. I think she knew that if I had gone myself I would have chickened out.

Well the experience was horrible. There was no pain killer and I never received anything to help calm my nerves. I cried and begged to be let out of the office but no one listened to me. My fiancé's mother stood by the doctor the entire time telling me to stop crying. Well it is a horrible memory and I have not forgiven any of the parties involved but I do not regret getting it done now.

My life is moving in a wonderful direction direction now, and I soon will be teaching history at a local high school. I still have nightmares and I still cry a lot. I am currently working on letting go of all the hate I feel for my soon-to-be mother-in-law and my fiancé. I know I love him but I don't know how long it will take to forgive him.

April